12.23 Orchard Street Studio's

Today I am fermenting.

Last night was one for the books, Wolf stopped by but only for a little bit - she seemed very sad and out of it.

It turns out that Vera the cat chewed the USB cord for her Bose system and now she cannot listen to music.

I immediately wondered if this happened during my watch, but apparently it happened afterwards - because the whole time I was house sitting, Vera had complete free reign, although most of the time she snuggled up next to me. I also let my wolf know that she can listen to music via the purple demon, that she could take the 2 small powered monitors, or better yet - that I could give her the 2 powered monitor's I had bought for Sarah but who shows no interest in recieving her gift...

12.27

Anyhow, once wolf left I reverted back to partying mode - hence the feeling of fermentation today...

I woke up once again thinking about Janet Padvaganian - not how she seems to be today, but that of the 13 year old girl with the dirty barefeet. I would imagine I was maybe 11 or 12 at the time, so this was possibly my first inkling with the other sex, along with Anna Bauman and Kelly Graham from Schroon Lake...

But today it's business as usual. I am hopeful to return to a some what normal existance once again. If thing's go according to plan, I will have 3 solid weeks of work (40hrs) then 2 weeks off. This will be good. I mentioned to wolf that I want to go on a full bender on one of those days. Well, right now - that would be the furthest thing on my mind...

Chris TDF is going through some real bad times. I posted a comment that she should get in contact with me so I can see what I can do for her. She should definately file for bankruptcy - while one still can...

12.33

While thinking about Janet, I was listening to Glenn Beck, now I am listening to El Rushmo - who is talking about Global Warming being a lie.

Ok, well - I'm not so sure I would say it's a lie, it's more of a pattern - but if Rush is going to say it's a lie, then he should tell the truth as to why it's a lie - but he won't do that - because he's in with those people with the power (after all, he is the chief propogandist) but com'on Rush, tell the truth - that it's the investment bankers that are behind this, and how Al has a stake in that body as well...

12.37

Want to know the truth?? Watch The Obama Deception.

Time to start my Monday chores, then brunch, then off to the job... Best thing is I'll get to see my wolf !!

Maybe I'll stop by her place tonight after work.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth...

12.45 Orchard Street Studio's.

Today starts off with a bang, an email from Vlad, Wolf, and Michele the kayaking goddess...

I woke up around 11.00 after having some very strange dreams - like they moved the Final Assy Line on to Rt 34 or something... Wolf was in it, but it was like we were just distant aquantences....

For those interested in my river clean-up work, go here:
http://earthbound-atwa.blogspot.com/

For those interested in how I feel about politics, go here:
http://earthboundatwa.wordpress.com/

12.48

Vlad's email touched on the 'suppossed' reason President Obama was elected - to get us out of this war. I replied that this is what the fairy tale version of the election taught us - but in effect, it's the "meet the new boss, same as the old boss / won't get fooled again??" type deal...

Well, most folks here prefer to be fooled again and again. They refuse to research the facts but instead allow talkshow hosts to dictate what's really going on. What is amazing is how something under "W" can be percieved as good, but when "O" does it - it's really bad. I'm talking about giving 5 trillion US dollars to the bankers - who prompty kept - I mean lost - it all...

Anyone who still believes that 9/11 was a terrorist attack as the fairytale goes really needs top wake up and smell the shit. Or maybe look out of their window and see what's really going on outside...

Ever since that whole deal the last time aroud before this time - where Gephart was the man - until Madonna (!?!) decided that Kerry was the man, so it became two Yale buddies who were skull and cross bones members running against one another. What a crock of shit if there ever was one...

Then the nonsense about Kerry going to have all these lawsuits if Bush wins - yet he gives Bush the election before all the votes were counted - at 3.45am Wednesday - as heard on 880WCBS...

Meanwhile, everyone at FOX news the night before was crying, saying that "it's over" then the next thing you know - they are celebrating because all the exit polls were wrong. Must have been that press release Cheany put out about NYC having another (?) terrorist attack if Bush is not re-ellected. Like they can call them up and say, ok - lets roll... Wait a min, I can't believe I just said that.

12.58

There are no real elections on a national level in this once proud nation anymore. It's all about which actor can fool the people into believing that change is gonna come. And with people like that fat pig who's on the radio during the early afternoon saying thing's like how Clinton was in the White House on 9/11 (I heard that one myself) and how everything Obama is doing is bad (while the same message Bush proclaimed was good) - it's one big deception...

Don't believe me??
Check out the 2 hour version of The Obama Deception...

13.01

Last night while waiting for my Wolf to return home over in West Haven I spent some time attempting to get a classmates.com site up and running. It would be my third attempt. I only want it as another search engine so to speak - to see if I can track down those who I have not seem in 25 - 30 years now... I guess that's why I did a Facebook site too, which I have a bad feeling that soon I won't be able to access that either - just like the gmail account I had for 1 week...

Anyhow, one person I found was none other than Janet Padvaganian. It's incredible to this I could even spell her name right after all these years, but find her I did...

I looked at her photo for a long time. She looks stunning but nothing like the Janet I once knew (and wrote about at great length in my profile on my original LJ site) and I could not help but wonder if she still ran barefoot everywhere just like she used to back in the mid to late 1970's, along with Susan and Lori Memolo, not too mention Lisa Farkou - who's mom would yell at Janet to put on her shoes - all the while Lisa was going barefoot too!! Only difference was that Lisa would not let her bare soles become really tough or stained black as coal like Susan, Lori and Janet did year after year after year. Thing's were so much different beck then...

When one is coming of age surrounded by young girls who ran around everywhere all summer long in the filthy city streets of Brooklyn, it's no surprise that this is something that still appeals to me to this day - although certainly not like it once did back in my adolescent days.

Older and Wiser yes?? Maybe...

So when my Wolf finally appeared with a very happy Eris - I was caught off gaurd that the first thing she wanted to do was play World of Warcraft!!

13.09

Ok... actually, after thinking about it - why shouldn't she want to do this??

So, in the meantime, I was actually starting to reach a point of fermentation from doing nothing but consuming Miller High Life for the past 4 days - and once I could not stop giggling about the MySpace mood "fermented" and also the characther named Fungi from Aion - I figured it might be good that I myself head back here because I would have driven her nuts...

I laughed the whole way home, the way an insane man laughs.
I even laughed about it this morning, but I think I'm ok now.

Julia told me that I need to get some sleep.
I think I just needed to get away for a bit...

13.13

So, when I told my Wolf I was going to head back home (I actually had a legit reason - to see if Waldo and Smokie were behaving, which they are) I was surprised when she wondered if she would see me today. Of course she'll see me today - and it's gonna be here for a change which will be good.

I love the little room because it's my home away from home but I love being here because here is also my home away from home...

Did I mention that me and Julia remain free spirits even though we are married?? Well, we do - and that's exactly what's going to keep us together forever too...

13.16

Today: Visit my folks to celebrate Thanksgiving.
Later On: Take out the Dancing Ferret (Walden Sports Tandem) kayak out for a quick spin to see if I can find the telescoping net I lost yesterday.

Tonight: Otter and Wolf time!!

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

10.23 Orchard Street Studio's

It's a sunny, windy, cool Saturday morning. My holiday has come to an end. I woke up today actually trying to figure out what day it was, especially since I listened to the sounds of my former co-workers coming over the scanner - waiting to load blades...

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice leaving that job. The answer should be quite obvious: I mean, com'on... I just had the last 4 days off from the job, what more could I want??

But this was not by choice but by necessity, Caring for my folks comes first. The furlough, although welcomed - comes second. I doubt that I would have taken Wednesday off if given a choice. But the fact that I was able to take all this time off is a good thing.

Not too much exciting happened, a whole lot of on-line actvities, and that's about it...

I spent most of the time taking care of my Wolfs cat Vera over at the West Haven residence. Some additional time was spent thinking about music, while consuming a reasonable amount of Miller High Life...

10.29

Today, it's back to the beginning again.

I just had a good breakfast after a very good nights sleep and look forwards into putting in a full day doing what I do best: River clean-up. Boat of choice for today will be the Defenders of ATWA rowing canoe.

Speaking of the Defenders of ATWA, after a long break - I visited the MySpace group site and suddenly remembered why I'm a silent member... It's the same reason why I don't post anything at the NVPC Yahoo! group site either. It's because I am out of their league. I am an outsider, while they are all connected - so to speak...

10.34

Tonight Wolf will come home. I was originally going to spend the night with her, but now I am not so sure...

We'll see how it goes I guess...

It's weird, I've actually had very little time for myself while she was away. I guess it's cool though, because honestly, what would I have done anyway??

That's right, Nothing... except maybe visit some old friends.

10.37

Time to place a call to my folks, then load up the canoe and put in some work.

I am trying very hard, but I just can't be happy today.

I also noticed that for the first time, I'm not all that excited about going out to clean the river.

Maybe I'm getting too burned out.

I don't know, because I just had a whole lot of down time, but either way, I'll be out all day today doing my thing in the name of AIR, TREES, WATER, and ANIMALS...

I'll be back soon.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxo

11.14 Orchard Street Studios

Question: What is more popular than Thanksgiving?
Answer: Black Friday...

Today is the 'day of rage' as far as shoppers go.
Death totals from rage shopping continue to sky rocket each year as the crazed consumer becomes more crazed...

If I was a store owner, I would round up some serious Taliban warrior's and arm them each an AK-47 and a dozen clips with strick orders to mow down anyone who's outta step...

11.19

Can you believe it's come to this??

After giving a day of thanks, next comes a day where violence is not only accepted, but encourged - because it's good for business...

I wonder if the death tolls this year from Black Friday will exceed the numbers from 9/11...

11.20

Yesterday was a day of contemplation for me. No Thanksgiving this year, with my father being ill, it's simply not possible. This is the reward my father gets for a lifetime of hard work - less than 1 year after retirement - almost 10 years of torture...

I spent the day at home in West Haven, with Vera the Cat.

Wolf called a couple of times and as always it was good to hear her voice...

Since I had time to think, I suddenly decided to jump start my 2 defunct earthbound atwa sites. The one on wordpress was more political, showing how politics directly effects the ecology while the other on blogspot was more a journal of my river clean up missions. I liked that one a whole lot...

So both are back up and running, well - kinda, once I get some more postings there - then I can officially state that both are back on line. What I will do is as posting's on either site are made, I will provide dirct links here, usually the day after - because the machine I use for those sites is the mighty Purple Demon, and that machine is at our West Haven home...

11.31

I just got a call from my mom, the weekend is officially on hold. Meaning that it's going to be day by day with my father. Worst case scenario is that he will go blind in one eye. Best case scenario is that he will stabilize right where he is at.

Man, my wolf was not kidding when she said something bad was going to occur this weekend...

11.35

If you want to really know what's going on with how this country is run - watch THE OBAMA DECEPTION.

Make sure the one you see is like just below two hours long.

I watched the first hour yesterday, and while I was expecting more bashing of our President, instead I got a real treat - the people behind this documentary showed how every president after President John F Kenney was owned by major corporate interests, with today it being the bankers who call all the shots. Some of what I saw was well known by me already, but much of it was new - I had no idea how corrupt our government really is - and yes, I can see how it is like the WWF wrestling - where on stage everybody wants to kill one another but behind the scenes - it's all buddy buddy.

Hell, I bet even Rush Limbaugh - the leader of the Right - is pals with President Obama behind the scenes.

Money does indeed change everything...

11.43

Today: Visit with Vera the cat.

I will try to update the original LJ page I used to run.
That link is on this main page somewhere.
I will also make sure that I am happy with all the on-line work I have been doing over the past week.

I was going to visit David and Cheryl either today or Sunday, but then I decided not to do so. After reading the NVPC group site I see how I'm out of their league, and that for me it's best to keep a safe distance from 'the real kayakers'...

Tonight: Maybe dine at Tony Wong's, then chill out here in the studio...

Tomorrow: River Clean-up with the Defenders of ATWA canoe??

Tomorrow Night: Visit with Vera the cat, then later on it will be Otter and Wolf time!!

Sunday: Relax, hopefully visit my folks, maybe sneak in a late afternoon kayaking trip - then relax at home, get ready for another week at work...

11.52

I'll be back here soon.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxo

11.30 Orchard Street Studios

Today is Thanksgiving Day.

For me, it started with a phone call from my mother stating that my father needed emergency eye surgery - this just a couple of days after he had emergencey lazer treatment to keep his retnia repair from detaching...

It's times like this where I sit back and really wonder if there is a God. As a Lutheren who spent a good portion of his time in Cathloic schools I always felt that there was.

Now I wonder...

11.34

Charles said it best when he said that religion was invented so man can justify his evil ways. Maybe that's not the exact quote - but it was something like that.

Jello said 25 years ago how religion has been the tool which started every single war (by stating 'show me a war that wasn't started by religion) which to this day hold more true than ever.

Why should I believe in God?

I honestly see no point in it anymore.

11.36

Air is God, because without it - we die.

11.37

Oh, it gets better... as I was coming out of the toilet, I gazed at the two prints of Gina which happen to be in rotation in the gallery where I have a revolving series of prints on display. Why I don't know, because with the exception of my wolf, nobody ever visits anymore. But as I gazed at her tough, dirty bare feet - not to mention her kind loving smile and face, I could not help but think about how 10 years ago now it had ended for us - and it's obvious that today she is the winner and I am the loser.

The realization of having to get a permitt for the Metro North Stratford Station now has come into play. This is so in the case of an emergency like on Tuesday, I can drive to Stratford - switch cars - then head into NY - then upon return - all 3 of us could head back home together...

This is easy enough to do - and it might even be a reasonable fee - there's only one slight hitch: Gina M Conner is the one who does the permitts for that railroad station, and the thought of having to see her is too much to bear. If I'm lucky, she'll not recognize me - in fact, if I'm blessed - she will have completely erased me out of her memory banks (which is one thing she does well) and will treat me like any other human being.

Worst case, she'll not believe my intentions of why I need a permitt and will call the police on me, which is a very real threat...

Best case, well - there is no best case - I'll just have to cross that bridge when I get there...

I'm sure I'll think of something.

11.46

Another thing which comes to mind is something which my Wolf likes to kid me about - all my lists and plans. I'm looking at my planner right now - how events for this very day / weekend have all changed, and you know - she's right.

Why plan for anything??

There's no point when it can be cancelled through no choice of your own.

I think about when I worked at the test stand which I use to run, how I missed many events because I had to work...

I now think about the doctor who is working on my father. In way way, this is the absolute best Thanksgiving ever - for both parties... I wonder if the doctor misses many holidays to perform eye surgeries...

11.50

Peas (Chickpea the calico cat) is really squeaking and buzzing away. At least somebody is happy!!

I don't know what I'm going to do over the next few days.

All I know is that Thanksgiving Day has taken on a whole new meaning for me.

11.53

Today I will spend the day with Vera the cat, as for tonight, well it's hard to say what will happen...

I had originally planned on getting some good river clean-up in - but I don't see this happening now.

Maybe it's just as well. I'm also giving thought in what I was thinking about regarding getting a tandem expedition sea kayak. Well, there's no point in getting one now - because it's doubtful I'd be able to use it. Life is going to be very different for me now - because now, I will be taking more care of my aging parents than faced with before...

My only regret is the period of time from 2000 until 2007 - this period of time was spent in a negative way - nothing positive came out of those years - and now where I have a chance to get some of those years back, I've been denied...

11.58

While I was hoping to spend New Years Eve in NYC with my Wolf, it's impossible now.

I just can't take that chance - especially since my dads illness tends to flare up around holidays... instead I will have a quiet night at Wolfs place with Vera the cat and Eris the dog.

Maybe Wolf can spend the night at her brother's - this way she can see the entire Paul Van Dyk performance...

12.03

Maybe I can take the canoe out on Friday for a bit. I really need to work on cleaning the river. I'd like to get the canoe out on Saturday as well - but perhaps one full day will be enough...

I was sort of hoping to see David and Cheryl - but now that I think of it - who am I kidding... I will never fit into their circle - I'm just better off fading away quietly... Same with Joe and Sherry - although I did fit well with that group - it's just that I can't stand being in a room full of trained musicians...

12.06

Time to hang out with my cats, then it's off to spend the rest of the day with Vera. I may work on some music while I'm there - I'll have to think about it some...

I'll be with Vera on Friday and Saturday as well - most likely at night. I like being at my Wolfs place - it takes me away from all my troubles and sadness...

Happy Thanksgiving.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

11.51 Orchard Street Studios.

Today starts off with a grey sky and 4 cats eating in the kitchen. I replied to an email my Wolf sent me regarding this up-coming week: I'll be house sitting for Vera the cat - but it's not really house sitting - because I have a place in her home and in a way her place has become my place and my place her's...

It's two very different living arrangements - but similar at the same time. It's also good that while we spend a whole lot of time together - I mean, com'on... we are married!! - but seriously - we spend some time apart too - which I feel is absolutely essential...

11.55

It was right about now 10 years ago today that my ex-Gina told me over the phone that 'she wanted some space' and I never heard from her again - except once...

My crime was going to Brooklyn to visit my friends over Thanksgiving weekend. I had actually secured permission to do so a couple of weeks in advance - but when judgement day came - I was suddenly not allowed to do so and was swiftly punished.

I'll never know the real reason - but I know we were very un-happy for about 6 months - at least I was... Mainly because I felt that I was robbed of my personal identity - meaning the human being I once was - full of life, music, and art...

I never did bounce back - although the past couple of weeks with Wolf may prove me wrong over time...

12.00

Funny thing living in a studio / gallery, I still rotate certain photographs which I took from say 1983 until 1998. There's a place in the hallway where I do this - and it's always images of women. I have maybe about 40 prints which I rotate through - sometimes once a week - sometimes once a year - of perhaps a half dozen girls / women I've known over the years. While some may know me for my off beat fashion photography, this is actually a very small body of my work. Most of my work was simply experimental, or avante garde so to speak... Lot's of landscapes, and found objects...

But this week or month or day, the two images on display happen to be of Gina - back during happier times - taken on a park bench off the New Haven Green. One is simply of her face and upper body. It's a shot which is timeless... The other is of her whole body while reclining on the bench, showing off her permenantly stained and calloused barefeet. Gina did not like wearing shoes, which in her defense was a style which totally worked, she really looked sexy going barefoot everywhere - and this was something she was quite proud of - bcause "it's something that's very easy for me to do".

If I recall right, every photo I took of her that day she held the same exact pose with just minor adjustments to her legs while I moved around to get different angles - which is something I have never done before - or perhaps since either...

But then again, I no longer do anything like this type of photography either any more... I was good at fashion photography when I was young, but today I am older - and don't feel I could do anything even remotely as interesting as what I've already done...

12.07

I look back upon those times - infact, this specific day 10 years ago - and have very mixed feelings...

Why??

I'll tell you. Because the day we started to live together - that's when the party ended.

12.09

If I recall, we were also married - but again, not in a traditional sense... so once we stoped - hold it - once SHE stopped loving me - it was over. I tried for a very long time to reconcile with her - even beg for forgivness - but my last communication from here - actually my only communication from her was written on the back of an envelope of a letter I wrote to her "Leave Us Alone".

It was not written in a hostile mannor, but a sad one...

I got the message real fast. The marriage between me and Gina M. Connor was officially over...

12.11

Since me and Julia got married - I feel actually better than ever.

While some may still choose to view as what we did as not legit - I'm interested in seeing how the so called big money traditional marriages hold up over time compared to ours...

Like Lynne's wedding the other night, God am I glad I did not have to subject myself to that - but I sincerely hope that they are truly in love and happy with each other - beacuse if they are not - the divorce will be very messy and sooner rather than later hence forthcoming.

Now, that's a party I'll attend - with my wife Julia around my arm...

But again, in all seriousness - what makes a marriage legit??

Is it really the piece of paper??

Or is it the feelings the individuals have for one another...

I'll continue to believe option # 2 until proven otherwise...

12.15

Last night was the first time in many many years where I actually put in a full night in the studio. And the best part was it was not here either - it was in "the little room" - which is my annex over in West Haven...

I used my old but trusty Roland JX-3P polyphonic synth and a Lexicon delay - which is actually 2 units in one - so you can use this similar to a tape loop set up if so desired. I plugged from the processor straight into a Sony MD recorder - and after a couple of test runs regarding level adjustments - cranked out a 62 minute composition...

The combination of both the CD Wayne just sent me - and the idea of working outside my normal studio enviroment - is also what inspired me to start the creative process once again. Over this week, I'm going to put in 4 more solid sessions in 'the little room' and will work with other instruments like my 8 string bass, my 6 string Tune Bass, and the Syme Guitar - which is an instrument in it's oven catagory...

I do have a myspace music site up - but it's still in it's birth stage. I also threw up a face book site too - but that is only a calling card for anyone searching for me...

The plans for the rest of this year include publishing my new compositions on line, and working within the digital medium regarding photography.

12.36

I should mention that on Saturday, both an Otter and a Wolf went kayaking - in Magnification - which is a Pamlico 160T made by Wilderness Systems. It was I thought a very very good trip - perfect weather conditions - and tidal too - which allowed us to leave at a reasonabe time and return just before complete nightfall to our starting point - which in this case would be the Birdseye St. dock in Stratford. Our destination was the two marshes just north of the defense plant. Poor Wolf had much on her mind. I've been there too, in fact I remember making this smae trip - with so much on my mind that it was impossible to enjoy it. Now with hindsight behind me - I can see how some of what I felt was legit, but most of it wasn't... Needless to say - once the time was right - I made my move in order to straighten out my life - which in this case was a career change - and have been relatively happy since.

12.43

Not every job is perfect, and sooner rather than later we all eventually wake up one day and wonder what the hell went wrong...

In my case, it's probably trying to do too many thing's at once - run a studio, defend the ecology, work a full time job... and in the end - all three suffer.

Today, I am happily married, defend the ecology, run a studio, work a full time job (which sometimes I even like) and as incredible as this sounds - still have time to myself.

I guess it boils down to how we look at life and determining what's really important. Take for instance this up-coming Thanksgiving Day weekend: 10 years ago, I desperately needed to get out of town - because me and Gina were driving each other crazy. But this time, I am happy to be staying right where I am - both here - and over in West Haven with Vera the cat while my Wolf and Eris and Wolf's brother all head back home to visit family... It's cool, because when you are in love - you view this break in time away from one another not as a burden but as an opportunity - an opportunity to do something positive and creative - meanwhile the other party does not have to be stressed about hurrying home. Plus, thanks to the marvels of the internet - we'll be in contact with one another anyway - so it's all good...

12.50

I have to email David at CT outdoors - because I honestly forgot what I emailed him last night from Wolf's - because the Schaffers were starting to kick in real good - and also because the on line accounts there I cannot get here - and strangely enough - vice versa...

Me and Julia are going to go the AIRE route as far as getting a tandem expedition sea kayak. We really like the Sea Tiger, for reasons which are too numerous to mention... But David keeps on the lookout for a Northstar, made by Wilderness Systems - just incase I'd like to see one - which is a good thing too...

Both boats have their advantages and disadvantages - the Sea Tiger having numerous one's over the Northstar - but the Northstar having only two advantages which are crucuial: a solid hull and a very fast paddling speed due to it's sleak design. But, that being said, you are not going to take a Northstar on mass transit like you could a Sea Tiger - so , well - this will be decided next year anyway - but the Sea Tiger is definately going to be next, along with a small sail boat which Wolf has expressed an interest in...

13.00

Time to start doing my chores.

This upcoming week, the greatest way one can give thanks is by displaying love - be it with the person you are with, or by caring for the enviroment, picking up some trash that's not your's, feeding the birds and other outdoor pals, but most of all - perhaps giving some thought to being a vegetarian - or better yet: a vegan.

There are options, if one allows themselves to be open to them.

The suffering the animals endure - who are only being raised to be slaughtered in the most inhumane cruel conditions one could ever imagine - just so we can satisfy our desires which may or may not be real. The entire ecology suffers too - with entire forest being bulldozed for the sake of McDonald's cattle prisons, among other fast food venues...

If you could only see the horror in these poor animals eyes, your mind would be changed forever...

Happy Thanksgiving.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth +ATWA+

01.22 East Derby.

I'm just returning from a most pleasent evening with my wolf.

We had lots of quality time together including watching "Tank Girl" which I highly recomend... Seperate time included me getting my old Yahoo! email profile for the studio updated, getting a new magnifica.tion profile going on Yahoo! email as well (which kinda has the Yahoo! system a little confused - as to why I want two seperate address'es...

Partly because in addition to my site on MySpace, I now have a second site on MySpace which is a music based site designed to premire any new compositions which I am involved with...

Facebook profile is all set, and a blast from my Bishop Ford CCHS days has already reached out to me and friended me - amazing how this works...

I am also back with the Naugatuck Valley Paddle Group or Club - I kinda forget which term they use - this should be interesting but not as interesting as the Housatonic Valley Paddle Club - which for some reason, I could not access their group site to join... too bad, their gossip is actually worth reading because they are so insane. I wonder how many of them do 80 - 100 kayaking trips a year like I do - probably not too many if I had to place a bet...

01.31

But the best part of the night was just lying with my wolf in bed. So peaceful, so beautiful the feeling of a simple tender touch...

Earlier today, I visited my folks across the river - and everything's back to one little happy family again - which is always a good thing.

I went kayaking for about 2 hours and saw a spectacular sunset today - as for my river clean-up, the good news is that there was very little garbage to pull up - but the bad news is that all the trash that once was here has now gone down stream...

01.35

One thing I wanted to do was clock the milage between this roost and my wolf's den - the trip over I took a different route and as usual, blew past the light I was supposed to take a right at. This trip clocked in at 10.3 miles. The trip home I re-set the counter a little too late - at the traffic light where we take a right to get to the supermarket... and this trip came in at I believe 8.5 miles or something - so my guess is that it's around 8.75 miles - which can be done via bicycle - except that one would risk their life in the traffic...

Tonight: Rest - sleep for at least 10 hours if possible...
Tomorrow: Household chores...

A new week at the plant begins tomorrow as well, hopefully I can get through it without any cancer causing thoughts.

: )

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

12.44 East Derby.

The sun is shining brightly, the tempertures are most pleasent for this time of year - today will be a good day.

After a brief period of not being able to be on line (due to ATT changing the way phone numbers are now dialed here in CT) I am somewhat relieved to have the connection back - even though in one way I would have been ok with not being able to do so just as well...

The Little Room over in West Haven is now complete. This is a digital multi media studio which will play a major role in re-vitalizing myself with new idea's and thought process'es...

Last night, I did 2 thing's which I've been meaning to do for a while now. I started work on a Facebook page which should be completed tonight - so, since I have no idea what the URL is - I suppose come Monday, a search of my name should link you with my site there. Now - this is just going to take the place of my original calling card which I had on Geocities - but since Geocities is sadly no more - I've needed a new replacement. So - please do not be alarmed if you try to socialize with me there and I don't respond - because that's not why I'm there. The other thing I did was set up a gmail account. This is in responce again to having a new home away from home...

12.52

Conversation at work recently. I may have Bob's name wrong.

Bob: "but you don't live together"

Julia: "why should we - we don't want to ruin our marrige - look at you - you lived together - and you're getting a divorce"

No truer words have ever been spoken.

12.54

The beauty of living seperate is that it provides a sence of romance which is un-attainable when you live together. It's partly 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' but more so 'your place or mine' which always keeps thing's interesting...

"If you love someone, set them free"

I never thought I would be ok with a completely open relationship, let alone marriage - but this is something unlike anything I've ever experienced in my entire life.

I now really know the meaning of love, and my wolf knows exactly how to be there for me when thing's go wrong...

12.57

This past Friday night, I did a painting. It's the first one I've done in many years - and surprisingly - being totally improvised - and done with my trademark speed (a couple of minutes) - came out suprisingly well. It was done entirely with spray paint - on a discarded window shade. Nothing like the art of found objects!!

Today I will journey over to my parents place - where relations have been strained as of late - to the point where I will just nod my head politely during lunch and then be on my way.

Then, it will be off on yet another of my river clean-up trips - while it's going to be a low tide - today should be a perfect day for it... I'll be using "The Dancing Ferret" which is a Walden Sport tandem set up as a solo kayak.

Tonight: Back to the little room in my wolfs den to where I will complete my Facebook page - then we shall see what happens. I should probably make a new Yahoo! profile as well - since my old studio profile is now obsolete - but we'll see about that because - honestly, the last thing I need is something else to have to deal with on line...

13.07

The former defunct 'on again, off again' myspace site of mine is back up and running...

I suppose I should perhaps consider a 'myspace music' account which would be able to showcase both new and old works of mine - as the digital studio starts to take shape. Something to think about - if nothing else...

I also suppose since this is my main site - nah - I'll keep this one seperate from the Facebook page...

13.10

A quick email to my wolf asking about this - then it's off to start my day All The Way Alive!!

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxo

00.49 East Derby.

Today was Veterans Day. A day where we honor those in service and those before us who fought and gave there lives to defend the United States of America. When you really think about it, there is no more greater cause than this - because our vets - the folks in the trenches, in the air, at sea, or God knows where are the real reason we live the way we do. While all the pig's at the top like to take the credit - it's the little guy out there in the foxhole who's doing the fighting and it's a shame that the veteran soldier does not get half the credit he or she not only merits but deserves. Actually, I'll go even further: This damned government should provide for the vets for the rest of their lives - because they are the ones who give and gave their lives over to the government to further the needs of those at the top.

12.55

One never hears anymore of any politician's offspring serving in the armed forces, hell - unfortunately those days are over...

So much for leading by example - but what is even more disturbing is with the move over the past 10 - 15 years to offshore the entire U.S. Manufacturing base (in the name of more corporate profits - not lower prices to the customer) to the point where for many folks - a career in the armed forces is the only option - unless one is rich enough to attend collage or industrious enough to learn a skilled trade (and lucky enough to find proper enployment) - but the truth of the matter is that the glory days are over. Wake up and smell the shit, because it's not only comin' down the pike, it's here - and it's pure - and authentic...

01.00

While driving home from my Wolf's den - I heard on WCBS 880am how the percentage of homeless folks who are vets is something like 20% which to me is pretty high. Sure, some right wing talkshow host would twist that around and say well that's only 20% - what about the other 80% - why are we selecting only the vets here - but they are missing the point. Just because one serves for his country does not mean that he is set for life. No way does it gaurentee employment either. Especially today, with that backdoor draft where anyone can be called back at any time - what a load of shit...

01.03

Today was a very good day. Me and Julia went kayaking into the Charles E. Wheeler Wildlife Preserve aka the salt marshes at the mouth of the Housatonic River on the Milford side - and what a trip it was. The weather was breezy but it was tolleratable as long as one was dresses properly. Wolf was in a hooded sweatshirt, jeans and barefoot (as always) but I suspect a pair of gloves might had been a good addition. I was fairly warm in similar attire except for gortex pants and boots. Both of us wore vests - which not only keeps us safe - it helps keep us warm. The Hero digital camera came along, and Julia shot several images which I will probably see over the weekend. On the way back - it was good that we returned when we did - once the sun went in the clouds - it got cold fast. We saw a swan, a dead crab, several ducks, sea gulls, and loads of Canadia Geese towards the end.

We also saw that quite a bit of litter still makes it into the marsh, along with two inbreeds who were riding a quad along the shores of Milford Point I believe it's called - where there are nesting grounds for birds...

Then, later on after I brought Julia back home - I came back here, washed the boat, ate, took care of my animals - then headed back to her den for Otter and Wolf time!!

Meanwhile - I've been setting up camp in 'the little room' which is a 5 x 10 ft room with a very low window. Hence, everything in that room is very low to the ground. This is where the Purple Demon is - which will be the heart of my new digital multi media studio - which is now complete less some cables for the extrenal gear I brought over today and a 10"x48" wooden board (that item will get droped off this weekend). The rest of the stuff I'll figure out over Thanksgiving weekend - while house sitting Vera the cat.

01.15

Such a wondeful turn of events - the 10th anniversary of when Gina dumped me will be celebrated knowing that me and Julia are one - even though we will be many miles apart. But this does not matter, because it is what is in your heart that matters most of all.

01.17

I spoke briefly with Wayne last night, he seems good - he's getting ready for the 'trial by fire' - which, I just found out Linda is invited too - which is very good news, I hope she has some fun... I thought about Linda today when me and my Wolf zoomed past the Cracker Barrel which would be off RT 95 just past the Pilot Truck Stop. I remember very little about that place, except I think me and Wayne wanted nothing to do with it - but went there to appease Linda and Lynne...

That was a long time ago - and as the time marches on - those memories become more distant.

All I know is that today I felt immaculate. Tonight I felt absolute-ly loved and happier than I can ever remember. Julia makes me feel alive - and man, what a joyful feeling this is to experience...

When it's right, there is no doubt in your mind.

01.25

Time to go to sleep.

I'll be back soon...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth...

P.S. If you see a vet, walk up to him or her and thank them. While many would lead you to believe that it's their choice to join - for many it's the only option - and especially now - those men and women need our support more than ever. Forget about the politics - that shit means nothing - it's these poor young folks (many who are now old or no longer with us) who really are the ones who made this country great.

12.42 East Derby.

The sun is shining - the temperture is good, today is shaping up to be a very good day.

Backtracking to last night:

An important milestone has been met: I was able to set up camp in my wolfs den just prior to 23.30 and after much thought, I decided that the little room would be the proper room for me to occupy.

While Vera's room has a very good view - the little room makes much better sense - because it is compact and ony has the essential tools of the trade in it.

The basic system is up and running, since this will be multi-media - a new photo printer will soon be added to the studio list, along with some digital equipment which I have aquired over the years - just incase...

Since this will also be a music room, the following pieces wil be added too:
1. Four space processing rack for direct recording to digital - also mini disc rack (also 4 space) for use as back-up...

(whoa - say what?? no more amplification units??)

2. possibly the Roland JX-3P synth. possibly... I have to give that some thought...

12.53

That's right: no amplification devices at all except for the Altec Lansing bi amp audio system which is plugged into the Purple Demon. If we're going to go digital, then I will take a cue from Wendy Carlos and eliminate the 'weak links'...

12.55

But this new world of digital is completely un-charted: Last night, while I was dressing wire bundles - the Purple Demon - without warning shut down. I immediatly assumed a suspect solder joint in the power supply portion of the Purple Demon since I had just cut a ty wrap securing the power cord - but Wilf reminded me that the system was supposed to shut down after the upgrades were complete.

But, when it shut down, it promptly wiped out everything inside.

All the wonderful music and images Wolf put into this machine was now gone forever...

12.58

I've heard several horror stories - one by my Uncle Jerry (Yester) where entire pieces of music would vanish when a computer would decide to revolt. This is why I always shyed away from the computer world, and also why with this old machine - everytime there is an upgrade - I pass - because I still recall my mom doing an update - and her favorite programs vanished forever only to be replaced by something more inferior.

Now, keep in mind - this is Windows - the Purple Demon runs Linix - Ubantu gnone I believe - so i's essential that I am using this equipment with the capable paws of my wolf by my side...

13.01

Why the sudden move to digital??

Well, I'm interested in it mainly for photography and art. The music aspect is a side benefit - one which I may or may not use...

Also, I'm not going to lie: For 10 years I've been trying to re-invent myself as an artist - and nothing has happened...

Now there's a very good chance something will.

13.05

As the Miller High Life's started kicking in, so did my need for sleep. The informal celebration started late - so I wound down early - and put the sparse but adaquate sleeping arrangement to work - and work it did - except that I suddenly found that I will need to re-install the door to the rest of Wolfs wonderful home. The door was removed because it would not close properly - which under normal circumstances I can totally see (in fact, I suggested leaving the door as is against the wall) but since me and my wolf are on different sleep patterns - it's best I put the door back up next week - while it does not have to close al the way - the added darkness will be a plus...

What I love about this new studio - annex so to speak - is how it is the exact opposite of what I have going on here - which creates an interesting dynamic...

I also see how this affects how me and wolf interact together.

When we are both here (in Orchard Street Studios) there is a sense of being bonded together - but when we are in her den, there is a sense of - not distance - but individualism: We can both do our own thing's and it's cool.

Funny thing is Wolf mentioned how I should get a better matress for the bed set up in bedroom # 1 (so it won't be like sleeping on a board) yet she has the perfect bed - and neither of us use it - very strange...

13.17

Today started off bright and early: Pre sunrise.

Julia walked me to my jeep, her always bare feet pounding the pavement which is a mix of concrete, asphalt, and broken rock and soil. Amazing how she goes barefoot all year round, even more amazing that whenever we embrace goodbye - it seems like we do it as if we are not going to see each other for a long time. I love my wolf more than anything else in the world. We are soooooooooooooo different - yet soooooooooooooo similar at the same time - which is good - because there has to be a difference in dynamics to keep thing's alive...

13.21

This past week, several folks at the plant have been asking us individually about our marriage. Those who tend to be uptight and straight don't get it. Those who are loose and do get it - support us 100% - then there is Lisa, who I'm told has been ranting as of late how gay marriage is not recognized...

Oh really Lisa, this is more the reason to "just do it" and fuck what the law says...

Hell, if Lisa had a partner - I'd even perform the cerominies for them - after all, I am a member of the Royal Order Of Cupids...

13.24

Time to do my river clean-up. Then I will call Julia and see what she's up to for tonight...

While I have thing's which I need to do - the call of the wild is as usual taking over - and I'm tempted to have another night of Otter and Wolf time together - this time over here - we'll see if this turns out to be the case or not...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth +ATWA+

01.20 East Derby.

Something very interesting is about to occur: I am going to be setting up a 'satalite' operation a couple of towns over where my Wolf lives. This is part of a major change which is taking place in my life - where I am finally after all these years 'getting it together'...

What sparked this whole matter was how I saw absolute potential where my Wolf live's, while she didn't. I make mention in th past how she wanted to move in here - but this would not be possible for the time being. However, I saw the beauty of where her den is and I could not believe the potential there. For the first time in a long time I started to feel creative once again - which is a major blessing...

I've asked and recieved permission to set up a digital studio revolving around the Alienware System Julia so graciously and generously gave me perhaps a month ago or so. But truth be told, there was no way this fantastic machine would ever see usage in this roost - because I simply no longer have the time to do anything on a creative level here anymore.

While some may wonder if this is a striking parallel like exactly what went on a little over 10 years ago - when I started moving electric bass'es over to Gina's place - this is very different - because this studio is going to be computer based - it's going to be both art and music, with the main emphesis being digital photography and sound recording. I've finally become a small, mobile, inteligent unit...

01.32

Another major victory which I see coming my way is reaching a point where I no longer feel the need or desire to consume alcohol - and this is also due to my Wolf as well - but not the way it was with Gina. With Julia, this is by choice...

Over the past 10 years, I have increasingly enjoyed drinking alone - to the point where any social interaction was to be shuned. No more. When I am with my Wolf, I want to be sober. It's just better that way...

Because I never really get the chance anymore to hang out and tie one on by myself here anymore, I just don't see the point in pretending that I could. I thought about having a few beers tonight - but I can't - there's not enough time which I can allot to it - so, better I wait until I can - and there will be plenty of chances for this to occur - like when my Wlof returns home during holidays. Then, the glory days shall briely return :)

01.44

Back when I was doing session work on a somewhat regular basis in N.Y.C. I had the privilage of working with John Griffin. He taught me so much about interaction between the instruments - how we are to respond to and respect each other's playing. By 1995 I was believing that we were the tightest rythym section in N.Y.C. By 1996, I was convinced of this - but saddly the project broke apart - partly due to both myself and John playing circles around our leader - but it was cool. I have 3 hours of tapes which prove that it was not only cool, at times it was miraclious...

Around this time I started feeling that if I was drinking, then I was not playing, and if I was playing, then I wasn't drinking. Well, after Gina dumped me almost 10 years ago, there was a whole lot of drinking which took place - and outside of the work I did with TSEDP nothing productive or positive occured during this past decade. Why?? Because I wasn't playing - I was drinking...

One thing I will owe Gina for the rest of my life is the way she forced me to be sober - because for about a solid year I was - and for the very first time in my life - experienced the joy of love for real. Last night, Wolf came by after work. She left early to do some homework for school, but I sorta felt there was another motive: Go home to take care of her animals so she can spend the night here. Now - originally, I planned on tying on a good one - but I suddenly decided not to - and had only 1 sip of Schaffer the whole night. I saw no point - because I knew where we were headed - so why spoil something that's beautiful?? To my credit, I now know when to say when - and that's a true blessing to come my way...

01.53

So, working forwards - 2010 and beyond - I want to re-invent myself as an avant garde photographer - but now using the digital domain. And my camera?? A "Hero" I got from LL Bean for next to nothing, in fact - I think I'll get another as a spare...

I also want to get back into being a solo performer. My days of being in bands are long behind me now - and because I've been there - done that - I see no reason why I would want to revist the past - unless it was with either the Third Uncle or Lucid Interval projects...

Recently, I've been reading a book my Bill Bruford - and it is very inspriring as well. Always a fan of his, with quite an extensive collection of his recording's - mostly of which is legit - I listen to when he plays, and more importantly when he doesn't...

One idea I had would be called "george's daughter" and it would be a very loose improv performace art project. Another - if I was to be in a band type situation - but not a band - would be called "Minimal Effort", unless that name's already taken. But the "george's daughter" I really like...

Both idea's came from Julia - and this in it self is amazing - because she is sparking creativity which I have not seen in myself for many many years. So, I view 2010 as a very productive year as myself growing as an artist...

02.00

The bag's are packed.
In a way, I'm excited - but in a way I'm very very sad.

Julia loaded up the Alienware System with loads of very interesting music for me to listen to - and I am now bringing this wonderful machine back to her den.

I don't know how she feels about this - it's like someone giving you an expensive gift - and you say, oh - keep it here - but in a way it isn't...

Because Julia has expressed an interest in digital photography too - it makes sence to have all the machines in one location where they will actually get used - and that would be in Vera the cats room!!

So, tomorrow's a busy day ahead of me - I need to aquire a few more items so I can make this transition as smoothly as possible - because I want to be able to get to work during the upcoming Thanksgiving Weekend - which will be just in time to celebrate the 10th anniversary of Gina saying "I need more space" before hanging up the phone for good...

What's interesting about that is and is a little known fact is how I did not fight it. I just let her go although I tried for many years to reconcile with Gina, hoping that redemption would be in order for me - but to no avail...

I think that it's safe to say that in some ways I was fighting the idea of falling in love ever again.

02.09

But love always prevails, and while I am going through some major adjustments - I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do - and if I need to erase my past to make it work, this I shall do - because Julia means that much to me...

02.10

I wanted to call Wayne tonight, but I ran out of time once again so perhaps I'll try on Sunday.

Where does the time go??

I honestly don't know - but in a roundabout way - I just wasted the last 10 years of my life - and I'm not wasting the next 10.

I'm am going through them changes, but this time it's by choice - and it's a gonna work.

I can feel it, and it's something which goes beyond just a piece of paper - which is why we bypassed that silliness altogether...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

14.04 East Derby.

Election Day has come and gone and the local results are most pleasing. This is good. This also marks the first time I have not voted - by choice. I find it better to accept whoever wins and try to work with them as best as possible. Politically, one could say that I'm a Traitor - because I am always bouncing from one side to the other.

The late night meeting's with Philip Barry in his office when I was a young Conservative living still in Bay Ridge Brooklyn were times that I shall not only never forget - in some ways that's what's molded me into the person who I am today.

14.04

Some people really live to 'serve the mass'es' and I guess in a way I did too - be it via the arts - or when I was a volunteer fireman - or perhaps even though the half dozen or so blog's which I used to run.

Does anybody even care??

Sometimes I really wonder...

14.06

Jon Andersen would mention how the idea behind Magnification is that it is to bring out all that is good in each one of us - and how that would make everything ok - and he is 100% right. The trick is how does one find magnification within themselves...

Perhaps today many do it through Facebook - which seems to be the number 1 way people stay in contact - and I can see that too - when many miles seperate those we love or left behind...

Then there are some who focus on their work - Gary my ex boss would be a good example of that because his work is his life - and because of this - he excells greatly at what he does, but it comes with a price: keeping his direct reports happy.

Some figue that clubbing is the way to happiness - being a part of a social scene - be it a pub, a church, whatever...

Then there are those like me who feel rejected by the main stream and tend to keep to themselves...

14.11

Since late 1999, I rode a path of absolute uncertainity - mainly because - 10 years ago this up-coming Thanksgiving - my ex Gina dumped me - and dumped me hard. While I'll never know the exact reasons why - which at this point no longer matter anyhow - the results were startling: I went out of my way to make sure it would be impossible for me to ever get into that kind of situation ever again. I set my roost up so that it would be impossible for anyone to move in. I truly became the loner - but even a loner desires some form of love...

Believe it or not - even though this past decade was the absolute worst period of my life - it is ending with me finding the path to magnification - and ironically it comes directly from leaving my last position at my job and winding up where I am today. By returning to a situation where I had more control over my life - this allowed me to focus on thing's which provide deep meaning, satisfaction, and purpose in my life - which in my case is my eco work...

14.18

As I get older I find that it's best to harness anything negative into something that's positive. I now have no bad feeling's towards Gina at all - even though she is the reason I turned out the way I am today physically and mentally...

But as happy as I was with my eco work, kayaking, etc... imagine the joy I have now that I have a Wolf in my life!!

When I first saw Julia Barge-Siever - I just knew she was going to be the one. I just knew that I was going to give into love. And sooner or later - I did...

And this is a new kind of love too - one I have never experienced - and one which will stay with me forever.

Is my life going to change??

Of course it is, but this time for the better!!

14.22

I'll be back soon.

If the time here between posts increase's, this is because I am living live with my Wolf as we both head down the path to magnification.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth +ATWA+

(reprise)

Now, in my previous post I mentioned that perhaps my wolf would like a mobile home as opposed to a fixed one. She told me last night that when a wolf finds a good den, they like to stay. Perhaps all her searching has led her to the last place possible she thought she would find happiness - Connecticut.

Well, as a believer that everything's the same no matter where one is - how everything is relative - I'm going to prove to her just how beautiful life can really be, and I think that she's about ready now to experience it too - ALL THE WAY ALIVE...

14.01 East Derby.

Today is Judgement Day. The fools will go to the pols and vote (?) for those puppets they feel will help them out. I was all set to vote today - but I woke up too late and simple did not have enough time to do so.

Turthfully, I really don't give a damn anymore. Any one who asks me for my vote is in effect insulting my inteligence.

When I lived in Brooklyn during the 1980's - I was a regestered Conservative. This party was nothing like the Conservative Party today, this was more like how the Libetarians are (who today I view as frustrated Republicans).

But out here in CT, I was an Independent, a Republican, and then after "W" drove me out of the party - a Green - which these days is yet another party I have no use for anymore.

Voting today is an absolute waste of time. Those with the power behind the scenes are the ones who call the shots. But there are exceptions, like Michael Bloomberg - who is the only reason that N.Y.C. is still on the map fiscal wise. If the jerks in N.Y.C. vote him out, then they deserve everythig they get + hearing my "I told you so" mantra...

14.08

I went to sleep last night and woke up with a lot on my mind.

Both Kathy Golas and Jane appeared to me in dreams - Kathy with her famous black as coal barefeet and dirty blond hair (which was her late 1980's look) and Jane just being Jane - very safe, not trying anything new...

But it was my Wolf which was on my mind. I thought about her living arrangement - and the more I thought about where she was at at the moment - I could not for the life of me figure out why she would want to give it up. It's reasonable cost wais for what she gets, and it's a nice area. Quiet. Close to New Haven.

I even thought about seeing if it would be fesible for me to set up shop in Vera the cats room. I thought about moving my bed from bedroom # 2 plus the Alienware system so I could make that room a digital photo studio. I had several thoughts on my mind and even sent Wolf a long email this morning just to run these idea's by her when the phone rang: "How's Bank Street by Jenkins??" With that single question I knew that everything I was mulling over about in my thick skull was just a waste of time...

14.15

You can't keep a good Wolf down. They never settle and always prefer to be free. But they always seem to think that a new home is just around the corner where this otter knows that's the furthest from the truth one can get.

I will now suggest something very bold and drastic to my Wolf: Forget about ever renting or owning a place - instead, spend about 35 - 50K on a decent Ford F450 camper and make that your home - she could use my PO Box as a mailing address and Vera could find her way into this home. With ac power and wireless internet, Wolf would be moblie and set for life...

You see - When you love someone, you MUST set them free - and my Wolf being a Wolf - she needs to be free...

I already know that she will never be happy living anywhere that's a physical place within her reach - because she's just not into that type of living not too mention that coming from Ann Arbor MI, I can now see how Connecticuit has nothing to offer her.

She needs to be where her heart bring's her - and when it's time to go - she should be able to go - and I will support any decision which she makes...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxo

P.S. Did I mention the stove?? How it died?? I went to the parts place and the woman came back mad - asking me if I had the stove p/n because the p/n on the part assembly itself was not costing enough to be the right p/n !! What a crock of shit - so I went to Home Depot and bought a wooden top which I will cover the old stove with and use the twin gas burner set up instead. Fuck these people who only want to sell you new aoppliance's - why not keep the old stuff going instead??

14.17 East Derby.

As I guessed, Wolf was at my doorstep but did not go further than a couple of cell phone calls - which was the right thing to do...

Believe me - it would have been nice to see my Wolf but I was not planning for it - instead I was hoping to get all my chores done and also try to run this machine in d.o.s.

Well, I did - but I could not figure out how to make it do anything... so I'm back on Windows 98.

14.19

The thought of having Wolf living just a few steps away is most appealing - things will become so much easier if we were closer - way easier - not too mention that we would still have our own space if need be...

I hope this place works out - but most important of all - I hope it satisfies all of Wolfs immediate needs...

Time will tell!!

14.21

Time to have some coffee. My new "temp" kitchen is working out rather well. A Coleman two burner stove along with an old school Black&Decker toaster over from my parents (who had it in storage) - all my immediate cooking needs are now met...

Ok - now the day begins - be back soon !!

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

12.30 East Derby.

Wolf is on her way here - she's checking out a house at the other end of my street - this means I really have to move fast - and most likely go without breakfast because we'll be going straight to work then...

This machine (windows 98 bare bones stock - zero upgrades) is barely working - everything is locking up solid now - what I am going to try and do is get it to run D.O.S. and see if I can navagate better that way. If I don't post here for a while, this would indicate that something has gone horribly wrong. Should this be the case, fear not because in time I shall return.

Today: Clean the house, then eat, then head to the post office, the parts place (for the stove), and lastly to the job.

- well, that's if Wolf does not stop by - otherwise it will be Wolftime - then off to work, I can catch up with everything else tomorrow...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

12.25 East Derby.

Today started with rising at about 11.00 and feeling a little confused. Were was I last night?? And the stove issue - was that just a dream??

Well, I know where I was last night - I was with my Wolf in her den trying very hard to have a good night together. I brought over a bottle of square Kosher Blackberry wine and thought that it would help not only calm me down but also warm me up since I was feeling a bit of a chill - not from being physically cold - but from the cat eppisode...

Sometime yesterday I got an email from Vlad with a blow by blow article regarding his party at Freddy's pub. It took about 30 minutes to open. What shocked me about this party more than anything else is that he spent quite a bit of time talking about what his mother (?!) thought of the whole thing.

I guess I'm really a part of the old generation - which would have parties where no parents would be allowed - but today - it's like your mom is your new best friend - not your mom - and you do thing's together, party... man, I mean - what has happened to our society as a whole??

It's like reading Lisa's MySpace site - there is no rebellion because ANYTHING she does her mom supports 110% - which does not allow for anything cool or original to occur...

Anyway - today's already going much different than expected.

12.33

As I write this - Wolf is going to check out a house on a nice lake that's a rent / rent to buy / buy type situation.

We spoke about this yesterday and I mentioned to her that the way I did it was totally wrong - but I got lucky - because honestly prevailed on all sides. I've been in this house for over 16 years and I have no regrets what so ever except not having enough money squireled away - but this is what happens when you keep getting laid off...

While at my parents place yesterday - the radio had a program my parents always listen to. Typical right wing crap. And the financial guy gets a caller who get's it - he goes that the real problem in this country is that we have completely lost our manufacturing base. And the host immediatly cut him off like a good republican always does and said that manufacturing jobs mean nothing - that's not the problem at all.

Finally I was able to speak up during brunch and say that he's wrong - the loss of American Manufacturing Jobs is exactly the reason why this country is finished.

SO many people blame the unions - but what about the white collar pig who get's $150k - or more realistically - $150 million a year for doing nothing??

It's not the unions. I would love to see the rich pigs try to do something with their hands - physical labor - or even have an original thought...

12.40

While at Wolf's last night - I realized that the Manaschevitz was not really working so I decided to fall asleep. But I couldn't. A: beacuse I really didn't want to - Wolf had this great movie on about (I think) money laundering in the UK - man it was great - and B: I had the innocent cat on my mind.

At one point I asked if the over head light could be turned off. I guess I'm one of those folks who likes minimal "ambient" lighting so to speak - as opposed to overhead lights - which tend to make me forget it's nighttime.

But I lied next to Wolf while she eventually went on to World Of Warcraft - and two thing's happened: I felt disconnected and the clanking of the swords made me think about what is still wrongly refered to Helter Skelter...

I thought about how cool it would be to bust into the home(s) of those responsible for the killing of this poor cat and really show them what violence is all about. That's when I knew it was time for me to retreat back to my place and just lay with my animals and pecefully sleep.

12.47

I knew once I opened that white bundle last evening that the night - if not the next few days - would be killed as well...

I never take animal cruelty lighty.
NEVER.
Because I am ALL THE WAY ALIVE.

Now, I say I am all the way alone - because I am. It's and Otter and a Wolf and that's it.

I saw how in Michigan there are numerous wildlife agencies - real agencies (not like the bullshit one's here in CT) that are not afraid to tell it like it is. Or show it either...

I tried to find a single group in CT for Wolf which I could show her and say - see - these are good people - but I could not find a single agency - NONE - regarding either the ecology or animal welfare...

So, the ALL THE WAY ALONE mantra still stands true...

12.52

Another thing this state does as a whole is go after anyone who has an original natural looking piece of property. It's a capital offense in many parts to have your lawn anything but perfectly manicured and over 2.75" in height. Some communities even have paid city officials who measure front lawns. Yet if you try to run a business - say landscaping - out of your property - you are run out of town.

If a beaver knocks down a tree - there is massive outrage.
If a bulldozer knocks down a tree - with an Eagles nest in it - it's ok... because it's being done in the name of progress which in this fuckin state means revenue...

12.55

By 03.00 hrs I asked my Wolf if I coud go home. I felt alone - and wanted to at the same time desprately get to the bottom of this act of animal cruelity I came across...

So she walked me to my jeep - we embraced - and I made a quiet journey back to the house...

12.57

Charlie makes mention that if you kill a bug, an animal, cut down a tree - you owe that to the universe.

Forget about that God bullshit - God was invented so mankind could use it as an excuse to rape the AIR TREES WATER and ANIMALS along with weaker innocent people just trying to survive.

And the Presidents just are actors. I now see it after being clued into it from the Big C...

So my only source of peace is knowing that who ever killed this innocent cat owes that to the universe. Not too mention Karma - Karma will get that bastard just the same way that I shorted out my stove just by touching it and Charlie stopped the prosecuters watch while staring at him - then smiling once the Bug saw what happened.

Charlie Is Love!!

13.01

Today: See if I can get some fuel for my portable stove - then visit my folks for a much needed meal - then do my weekly river clean-up...

Tonight: Call Wolf once I am home and see how she made out ad then go from there...

I was planning on writing an article for the ATWA INTERACTIVE site - but I am not sure if now is the right time to do so - so perhaps tonight it is better to just relax and try to lighten up a bit and have some fun...


13.04

"Magnification" lived up to it's name yesterday - and yes - that was a Golden Eagle we saw across from the defense plant.

13.07

The sounds of leaf blowers is now in the air. Even the leaves are not allowed any peace - unless they fall on my property :)

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

21.28 East Derby.

Today started off on a high note. I went to meet Julia so that we could go kayaking together on this Halloween...

She greated me in her Wolfwear which is typically a shirt, jeans and barefeet...

After Julia grabbed her sandals (just in-case) we hoped into my battered jeep and headed towards the boat launch. Today was definately going to be a good day...

So we get to the boat launch, and we are the only vehicle there - which is fine by me...

While geting the kayak off the jeep and ready to roll (Pamlico 160T named Magnification)I noticed a white object on the right side of the boat ramp. I figued it was a plastic bag - and the last thing I wanted to do was turn this sightseeing trip into one of my eco jihads...

21.33

So we launched - and man, what a beautiful trip it was - we went from O'Sullivan's Island south to the defense plant and the Housatonic River Valley looked wonderfull. Full of trash - but the trees whaich are still allowed to stand looked so pretty - even though autumn is typically a season of death...

As for wildlife - we saw what Julia believed to be a Golden Eagle. We also saw a Great Blue Heron and an Osprey - and 3 deer in the marsh by the defense plant.

Suprisingly - the river was very quiet. I was expecting far more water fowl besides a few groups of ducks and seagulls...

We got out a couple of times to streach and embrace - and it was really nice. Poor Julia got wet pretty good - suprisingly the river was pretty choppy with close breaking waves to about a foot in height.

So, on the way back the light rain which was predicted started to fall but we still made it back before dark. I went up to the jeep - saw that white debris - started the jeep to get the heat on for Julia - then I would load the boat...

While doing so - something unusual kept happening - 3x to be exact. The rear dolly kept falling off and that never happens. Well, sometimes it does - but never 3x - it was like the boat was trying to tell me something...

21.40

With the jeep making heat and Julia warming up nicely - I dcided that a little clean up would be in order - I would grab that white pile of whatever - plastic - and simply throw it away. If it were only that easy...

21.41

To my surprise - it was a white sheet. And it was real heavy.

I knew immediately that something was wrong. I felt around and my immediate suspicians were comfirmed: There was a small animal inside - beacuse I could feel it's bones - and there was also a large rock.

Walking back to the jeep I was besides myself.

"I can't believe what I'm seeing"
"What?!"
"There a bundle with a dead cat and a large rock inside - I need to get my knife"

I could not find my knife - but I grabbed some pliers which can cut as well - but I instead mithoidically unwrapped this poor helpless creature.

I laid the cat on the ground. It was very water logged - and very skinny too... The look of anguish on it's face brought a combination of extreme rage and saddness.

The thought of screaming at the top of my lungs for all to hear on that god damned greenway - not to mention the echoing from the Rt 8 bridge became very real.

"IF I FIND OUT WHO DID THIS - I WILL CHOP YOU UP, I WILL CHOP UP YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR FUCKIN KIDS"

...but I said nothing - instead I took this poor animal - poured my heart and soul into it - and sent it into the river.

I seriously thought about bringing the little guy home and burying it in the yard - but I decided that the river would be ok... I also thought about showing the animal to Julia - but decided against it...

21.49

Once in the jeep with Julia and ready to go back to her place - I felt a little better - but I was on edge. If anyone were to cross my path - they would have died a violent death.

21.52

I am the Otter and Julia is the Wolf.

I am ALL THE WAY ALIVE

21.53

The rest of the ride was a blur - I missed where I wanted to turn off and ended up taking a different route to my Wolfs Den and we spoke a bit. Wolf spoke alot - but I felt like I was in a trance. I heard everything she said - but responded very little.

Wolf is my mate. I love her with all my heart - she is the most loving creature I have ever met in my entire life...

I thought over and over about getting the word out that those responsible should be slaughtered.

I also thought "How could this have happened"...

Maybe the cat was already dead??

There was no sign of the sheet being torn - or blood - and the animal did not appear to have been beaten or hit with anything... I don't know. But I do know that this time last year - ChickPea's sibbling vanished without a trace in that same area - and luckily I was able to rescue Chickpea - who is the happiest cat alive!!

Wolf had an answer: Devils Night.

Kids are fuckin cruel - and should not be allowed to breath the same air which myself and Julia breath...

Charlie was right when he said: "Fuck People - People are the Problem". He was also right on the money when he stated that 50 million needed to go in order to make a difference. St. George (Sandys man) took that a step further and said that this number was far too low - 200 million would be a much better starting point...

While talking about this - Wolf brought up parts of The Stand and said that it will happen. She mentioned many things which so deeply resonated with me - talking about the animal shelters - and how people should never own pets who won't keep them... it was very heartfelt and heartbreaking conversation - but I knew immediatly that she "got it" and that I have found my mate for life...

22.01

Soon we were in her neighborhood. The Trick or Treat'ers were all out - it was cool. The trees were covered in T-Paper - but if lucks on our side - the rain will disolve it over night...

When Wolf hopped out of the jeep - she did something I did not expect - she decided that it would be good to leave her sandals there with me in the jeep - should she ever need them for some reason... This I viewed as a major milestone :)

22.06

Tonight I will visit my Wolf.
I can't wait - but first I will spend a little time with my own cats here and let them know that they are loved.

While I was cooking dinner - my stove went POW.
I could not believe this - yet another matter which has to be delt with - but it's ok... because it could have been far worse if the unit shorted while I was not here.

Waldo is to blame for this - he sprayed the control panal...

But Waldo is only a cat who does not know any better - so I cannot be angry with him at all...

I wonder if all the rage which was in me regarding this drowned cat came out and caused the stove to short out??

Charlie once made time stop in the court room!!

22.11

Well, I feel better now after a good meal.

I'm going to call my Wolf and let her know that I'm on my way - and that everything's gomnna be alright...

I'll be back soon.

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Otter aka Earth xoxoxoxo

01.42 East Derby.

The night is nice and quiet - Alibaster is eating very nicely - something tells me that everything's gonna be ok...

Today started with a bang - or perhaps a feeling of renewed vigor after an exercise of "Wolf-ercise" which is some thing which Julia (who's nick name is Wolf) turned me on to...

"Be Gentile" was my first instruction - then the night progressed to were I felt very good and realized that this form of exersice would be not only very benificial to us both, but I could easily see it as something we perform on a regular basis.

01.46

I decided that I would go for a bicycle ride today since the weather was perfect for doing so. I hoped on the M-50 and within no time I went through 7 speeds zooming down Rt 34 towards St. Michaels School. Once again as I cruised by the back of the school on Bank Street, the classrooms were dark...

Do the kids of today ever go to school anymore??

Once on the Greenway I went down a little known path which runs parallel with the railroad tracks - where supposedly the homeless people live (although the only sign's of life I ever seen was a large stuffed bunny toy)...

Then it hit me: Soon this trip will not be possibe because everything's gonna be bulldozed down in the name of progress.

I thought about the article I was reading just the other day while rocking the pot at work. I got mad - not so much because of seeing yet another wild tract of land be developed - hell, that's the American Way baby - but because the D.E.P. is cool with this but would not let a fellow citize of the city run a rock crushing operation in the smae location.

W.T.F.???

01.52

As I pedaled along the Naugatuck River - I saw all the trash along the Derby ave side of the river... all along the banks.

Then it occured to me: With Election Day coming - what exactly has this current administration done which warrents my vote. An even better question: What's the opposing party going to do if they get in??

Now, Mark was voted out because (I guess) folks had enough - but Mark got the ball starting to roll on many projects - unfortunately it did not gather steam until the current crew got in...

One thing I'v enoticed is how the current crew starts all these ambitious projects involving major development - and never finishes any - with the execption of the clearing of Fire Island which was lobbied by the H.V.A. with the D.E.P.s blessing. I still have mucho mixed emotions regarding this latest example of clear cutting our natural wildlands...

But seriously - now the area along the railroad tracks is going to be leveled and fully developed?? It seems like yesterday that the people with the power decided to bulldoze pristine forest off of David Humphries Road to appease the Soccer Moms - who really run this city... I recall the idea being floated that these fields could go in the no mans land between the Railroad Sta and McDonalds... but the idea died because this would be in a flood plain. Interesting how the forest was destroyed, the fields built - and now they are unusabe - and also private property. If me and Wolf went up there to kick a ball around - we would both be arrested...

02.01

I pedeled along and soon found myself heading into Shelton and zoomed by where the factories are slowing becoming big buck lofts for the rich and not so famous...

"Who would want to live here" inquired my Wolf...
"Hipsters" was the Otters reply.

And lo and behold, as I rounded the bend - I saw some hipsters - unloading a couple of non-descript items out of a small U-Haul truck - and I did the best I could not to laugh or cry...

Canal Street has changed sooooooooooooo much since I used to walk it - which was only within 4 short years now...

The thrift shop with the nice painting of the stripy cat has long been demolished. I wonder what happened to that mural, it was not only of a cat but of all kinds of toys - a reminder of when times were simpler and happier...

02.06

As I headed towards "Better Packages", some rich pig in an Envoy blew the stop sign. Good thing I wear my bucket now...

Then, as I got to where the canal locks are - another pig in a suit in a very expensive car rolled on to the scene. He had keys to the gates - and rolled in real slow as to not get any mud on his flashly ride...

Once down by the dam, I saw a good reason why trash is becoming more and more common: the barrels ain't being emptied anymore - so everything goes over the side now...

Miss Mary Grant would have a fit!! I wonder whatever happened to her. I wonder if she was at the awards thing for the Clean Sweep. If I was off - I would have popped in - but I wasn't...

02.10

The rest of the ride saw me cruise down the other greenway and as usual I saw one of my whistle-pig pals - a very silly groundhog!!

I thought at length as to if I should even bother voting.

Once home, I sent the alderman prez an email about my observations as to who gets to play and who doesn't regarding that no man's land I mentioned earlier...

Wolf had the answer: the one which bring's the most money.

Yup!! Money indeed does change everything...

02.13

So to my surprise, I got a reply - and it (well, not really) kinda said the same thing. The wetlands issue has changed blah blah blah - but you know what?? He did reply - and always replies to me - so that's a good enough reason for me to vote his whole team once again...


02.15

The new washing mchine is a blessing!!

Tomorrow me and Wolf are to kayak together in the Pamlico 160T aptly named "Magnification"... should be a good time - hope to be out for 3 to 4 hours - with the ability to get of on shore as need be...

Tomorrow night: Fun and Mayhem for an Otter and a Wolf...

02.18

While I feel saddened that I did not make it to Leslie's gravesite to drop off my traditional pumpkin - it's cool...
I mean, she's in my heart - and I think as her father tells me - that she would not want to see me sad like I've been for the last 13 years... so this is an acceptable reason for me not to make the trip to the Burlington Town cemetary (but I will be there for Christmas Decorations etc...)

Pea's is squeaking. Wolf is playing Aion a couple of towns over and maybe having a beer or two - or maybe she's sleeping - which is what I'm about to do next...

Happy Halloween!! I'll be back soon...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxo

12.09 East Derby.

The sky is grey, and a gentile rain is falling.

The sound of the traffic was reasuring enough that I would not be taking out the M-50 in the wet streets. I'm funny that way - I'll kayak in the rain but not ride my man machine...

But today this works - because I'm going for a short hike - where me and Julia went last Saturday - to retrieve a well worn pair of white girls flip flops which were obviously discarded. Over the years I have built up a small collectionof womans shoes which have been found along roadsides and even in the river!! Everything from loafers to sexy high heels. But this time I need to get these flip flops for a work of art which I've been assembling for the past week...

12.13

Wait, did you say art??

Yesh!!

One of the benifits of being with Julia is that she is so full of like that in a way she has jump started my inner self and I'm now doing thing's I haven't done in many years - such as 'found art' sculptures - which is exactly what I'm working on right now.

Soon new painting's will follow - also on found objects - such as this blue piece of plastic structure which I found maybe last month. It has an interesting pattern on it - one where spray paint will work well with.

Then there's the Hero - which is a tiny wrist worn digital camera. This will soon be my main piece of photographic equipment, along with an Alienware System (thanks Julia xoxo) and soon a printer which is designed for photography...

12.18

All is well today. Alibaster took both her antibiotics and pain medicine. Antibotics will continue until Monday am. Pain meds until Friday. Ali is still not liking me - but that's ok - once she feels better, I suspect this will change for the better...

12.20

So, since both myself and Julia have gone public with our marriage - what about our HoneyMoon?? An even better question: Where's The Party??

Well, I suppose this could be done in two ways:

There's the up-coming marriage of Lynne - where everything is being coreographed and produced right down to every single last atom in the NY Metro Area. Everything will be strict and ridgid. Anything less than absolute perfection will not be tollerated...

I don't know about you but that's one wedding I'm glad I was not invited to.

Now, me and Julia are two free spirits - which probably explains the rocky beginning's we've had. It's hard when you take two beautiful independent individuals who suddenly find one another and are now making a go at it. Talk about being brave!! Well, when you realize that it will work out over time - then there's no sense in waiting for any of the straight world formalities - besides, jumping over a broom with Julia and saying 'we're married' is the most fun I've had in years...

Now, if I decided to throw a party in the studio for those who accept our marriage - I wonder if any one would even show up. I mean, in todays society - everything is done by the book with little room for improvisation, let alone having fun. I'm sure Lynne's wedding will be a blast - with plenty of folks dressed impecibely to the 9's mugging for all the papparatzi since this is a major event, not too mention the extensive gift giving which is also obligatiorary (is that even a word??) - at least with me and Julia - all I would hope for is that everyone's in a complete natural state and is having fun and experiencing the love. That's it. Well, losing inhibitions would not be a bad thing either...

12.33

The thing is I knew Lynne 25 years ago - and she was a very different person than she is today - in fact, I don't even know the person she's turned into... she went from a semi punk to something I cannot comprehend. I want to say she's become a society lady - but maybe that's not quite right...
God, I hope not...


Funny how some people change and other's don't. Some will and some won't. What's more amazing is how some grow up but never become adults. I'm walking that fine line myself, I mean becoming an adult?? How disgusting!!

12.35

Sounds like the rain has let up - time to go for a short hike and find those dirty flip flops for the sculpture I am completing... which actually has been a work in progress for over 16 years!!

I am suddenly reminded of a show Robert Fripp and (I believe) Trey Gunn did at Toads place - perhaps in the early 1990's...

I was not there - but Mark 'Mace' Maciag was - and the story he told me was one of strict discipline. That's the words I wanted to use to describe Lynnes wedding - strict discipline - but anyway - I guess a few minutes before the show started, the bars closed and there had to be a period of absolute silence. Trips to the toilets were not allowed. Complete reverence was the order of the night. Now Mark went on to say that this performace was brilliant - and I bet it was - but what if they said you could not breathe??

It's like the difference between when I saw King Crimson at Toads Place in Nov 2003 and then the Tony Levin Band (essentially Peter Gabriels touring band minus Peter) the following spring.

Two brilliant performance's - with absolute musical perfection. But one show was fun, the other was strict.

I loved both shows equally - it's just the way the audience was allowed to behave that was different.

12.44

I think judgement day for Lynne is on Nov 22nd or something like that. I'm very curious what the verdict will be as far as if it was a fun experience or not - I mean honestly - if a wedding's not gonna be fun - then what's the point of even bothering??

All I know is I am very much in love with Julia - and out jumping over a broom while holding hands and saying "we're married" as definately effected me in a very positive way - because I really do believe that we are married - because of the power of love that's between us.

Love can never be denied.
It can never be taken away.

While it may not always be understood, it is always truth.
...and it is the truth which shall set you free.

We are free to love the way we want too.

And our HoneyMoon??

Spending the rest of our lives together. I mean honestly, why just have a week or two of complete bliss when it can last a lifetime...

Sounds pretty damn good, doesn't it??
Hell Yeah Baby !!

12.53

Time to get those dirty white flip flops for the found art piece I'm working on. Because it's rare to find a pair - it's essential that I find them right away...

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth xoxoxoxoxo

02.40 East Derby.

Last night was one for the books.

I think I was telling Julia about the up-coming wedding of Waynes sister and how dreadfull it sounds - all this stress about "perfection"...

I kow I spoke about how Leslie wanted to have a simple garden wedding and hated the thought of having to go out with her mother and sister to look at dress'es. The one thing I remember - ok - two thing's - are that she was going to be barefoot and that she was getting drunk...

This may have resonated some - since me and Julia were having a delightful time in the studio rocking out to Paul van Dyk, Yes, PiL, the Bad Brains, and as the beer's were flowing Julia announced without warning that all we needed to get married was a broom. A Broom?? Yesh!! A broom - and all we would have to do is hold hands and jump over it and we would be married. What about a ring?? Julia assured me that none was necessary. So, I waltzed into the garage and while Julia thought I went out to get another Fall Special of Miller High Life (the champange of beer's) instead I came back with my old straw broom and laid it out on the studio floor...

We held hands - we jumped (and we might have even said "we're married" in mid flight) and we landed on the other side with Julia's always barefeet making a pronounced slap.

We were married.

How Fuckin Cool Is That !!

02.50

The whole vibe of the night changed - because now me and Julia were one with our little Gypsy Wedding...

But I'm totally with Julia. We're married, and if nobody wants to accept our marrage - fuck them too. It's our marriage, our lives, and ourselves who are maddly in love with one another - to the point to where sometimes we un-wittingly compromise our own selves... but isn't that what Love's about anyway ??

That's when you know the love is real. When you want to do something but in your heart you want to be with the person who you love, because well - you're in love with this person - and there's no better feeling in the world - trust me on this...

So later on as we lie in bed together with very puzzled looks from Waldo the Cat (after all, we were in his bed !!) we decided that it was time to call it a night...

A tearfull goodnight turned into both our animals greeting us once back home.

02.56

There's been a whole lot going on here - I finally got new tires for the jeep, got a new much needed washer (what a blessing that is!!) ...and last but not least: Alibaster Cat got her dental work done yesterday as well.

This required me to take off Friday (for mental health reasons) and Monday (for Alibaster's sake) so funds will be very tight for the foreseable future.

I also caught up on some blog entries from ChrisTDF and it seems that thing's are not going well at all on her end. I must save and try to send some money her way because she really could use some help not too mention the love of somebody who cares so much about her too...

I thought about how guilty I feel since it's been a while since I've really communicated with Christina... and even longer since I've been able to 'help out' which now makes me feel that I've broke every promise I ever made...

But I haven't - it's just that hard times have come my way too...

I asked Julia if she would friend ChrisTDF - I hope she does since Christina is a kind and gentile soul who can use some more friends...

Meanwhile, Julia sent me (and printed me one) a couple of pictures of her friend Sam. She is the one who inspired Julia to be a total barefoot girl - and judging by one of the images - appears to still be doing so to this day. Speaking of this - I made a couple of additions to the list I had on the previous entry - I forgot to include Rys and Jonnette - and now that I think of it - Miss (Mrs??) Irene Ferrari from B.F.C.C.H.S. should have been mentioned since she was always showing off her dirty feet when writing on the blackboard...

03.03

So back at the plant today, Julia was spreading the good word that she got married when anyone asked where she was over the past couple of days... In a roundabout way, I've been doing the same thing.

And what does it feel like to be married??
Fuckin Fantastic !!

My mom used to tell me that me and Leslie were married (even though we never were) and I know what she meant: When the love is there, that's all that matters - and believe me when I tell you dear readers that the love is there...

03.06

Tonight, after work Julia tried to get the Purple Demon to go online - but she had no luck. I'm by no means dis-appointed because I envision this wonderful cyborg to be my digital photography mission control center...

Poor Alibaster is hiding still. While Julia wanted to hang out - my old age does not always allow me to keep up with her and I suggested that she could stay while I went to sleep after feeding the animals and that all she would need to do is lock the door on her way out - but she decided to head back home anyway - where Eris and Vera are waiting for sure!!

I was hoping that Alibaster would come out - but she is hiding good tonight - I hope she comes out tomorrow - because she needs her antibiotics as part of her treatment due to having 11 teeth and a couple of ulcers taken care off...

Hopefully Alibaster sleeps with me.

Ofcourse, sleeping with Julia would have been better - but right now I need to get Alibaster J. Cat healthy again - then our honeymoon can begin - Woo Hooo !!

: )

03.15

Going to bed now. A piece of classical composition is being played - I don't know who composed it or it's name - but it reminds me of a part in Arron Copelands "Appalacian Spring" which is also heard in "the lord of dance" by The Dubliners.

While listening to Appalacian Spring - I lost all sense of time and being - it is such a peaceful beautiful serene composition....

Give-Love-Each-Day,
Big George aka Earth

P.S. Love My Wolf!!